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Aug. 12th, 2006


Today I learned that my old "friends" suck. They do. Especially one of my friends that I've known since I was 5 years old. We have the same birthday..exact day and year. We grew up together...and now she's changed so much I don't like it.

What went wrong? I blame myself, because earlier this year she gave me her number to hang out and I never called her. *kicks self*

We hung out that one time when we went to the movies and I totally realized how much she's changed.

Now she won't even acknowledge my presence and she walked by me like 5 times...

and jeez I won't even get into how Rhea acts towards me now.

Both of them act like I'm not even there.

I guess this is my fault.

It is my fault...I never really gave them a chance, and I blew it.

I don't want to care anymore, but a part of me still does.

Aug. 8th, 2006

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Oh Co-Op and Internship program, how I hate thee.

That is all.

It aint easy...

Work sucked as usual. I got stuck training this older woman, though, who turned out to be really cool.
I recently changed my schedule for school and I like it. I worked 3 and half hours mon and wednesday, I'm off tuesdays and thursdays, i work 2pm-6pm on Fridays...Saturdays-7am-4pm and Sundays 5pm-10pm...suuuuweet. So basically I work only one evening-on Sundays. I can deal with that. I'm just happy that I now have my evenings back during the week so I can go home and actually get my homework done. It's quite a difference from what I used to work: that 3:30-11pm shift..Ugh that sucked. I know that Walmart sucks as a job, but to be honest they have been really flexible with me, only because they know that I'm in school. Whatever works.
I'm kinda excited for school to begin. I guess I really want to meet some new people and make some new friends, although I'm quite happy with the people that are my friends now.

Saturday I went down to New York City with my friends for a fun day in manhattan. It was fun , but blazing hot. And let me say....I have never seen some many hot people.

Though as much as I love the city....I can't deny that I am a southern girl at heart. I love it when I'm down south. North Carolina...South Carolina...Georgia..I can't wait to come back and get crunk again. It's just a different mentality down south. I'm planning a Janurary 2007 trip down south.
It's the southern takeover.

Ok. And another thing- I promised myself that I wouldn't turn into one of those indie fucks that I hated in high school. And I still hold that promise. Indie fucks piss me off, they are such assholes about their music- what's cool and what's not. Stupid shit like if you have the right to like this band or not...and only they can like this musical artist. Whatever. I was on the emo bandwagon which was enough for me...but now I like what I like. Some of it might be underground stuff, some might be the mainstream kind. Whatever. I'm going to stay me and listen to what I listen.

I want to start another band again. I'm resurrecting my guitar skills... I guess you could say I'm an intermediate player..this december will be 4 years that I've been playing guitar. Well....it's been an "off/on" thing with my guitar playing, but with more practice I can start doing better-crafted solos, and perhaps some pinch harmonics.
Some new effects pedals might be in the forecast, along with some new amp equiment, and Pro tools. That takes money but whatever.

Aug. 3rd, 2006


The funny thing is....

if I get the chance to see him sing on stage again...

I'd fall in love with him all over again...

He's no half-wit boy to me....

He's a genius.....

I miss those days.....

I miss him.

Aug. 1st, 2006

oh yeah

That also reminds me that I should call Daisy tommorrow and tell her I'm no longer interested in the company and would like to cancel any previous engagements I had made with her in the process. So basically, I want to cancel the hiring process. That sounds good, right?

Or maybe:

"I just wanted to let you know I was offered another position elsewhere and that I am no longer interested in becoming employed at Primerica Financial Services (the company)and would like to cancel all further engagements that I made in the hiring process. I thank you for your time and wish you the best in all future endeavors."

I like the sound of that. I would rather talk to an answering machine than her though. Oh well. If I have to speak to her, I'll just wing it like usual.

Jul. 28th, 2006

Piracy has its benefits.

I downloaded the entire Paramore cd today. I like them. Coolness. I use to be against the whole downloading phenomenon; but when I finaly jumped of the pirating bandwagon- I found it to be a great tool. Besides, would I really want to pay an extra 14.99 for a cd that I can get for free- can't beat the deal.....anyway, I'm tired. Nite.

"My money gets jealous."

Jul. 20th, 2006

The summers that I spent.....

hating these moments? Oh..there is nothing more annoying right now than knowing that I have a meeting tonight. The day is based on this inevitable annoyance. I hate the people, I have no enthusiasm for the material being regurgitated at me. It's just one of the things that I really can't stand. I bough Grand Theft Auto : San Andreas for my PC and its not that great. The graphics suck compared to what it is on xbox...oh well. It was only 20 bucks...Ok well its time to being thrown to the carnivorous masses. Goodbye until tonight.

"and I keep hearing that same damn song everywhere I go.."

Ah... Ani Difranco is freaking awesome...her music is great to chill to.

Yay for Ani.

Jul. 17th, 2006

"its the little things"

Yeah. You could say that Im slightly annoyed or mad right now. Or maybe its just a mood that can't be described. It seems like everyone wants to talk to me, when they have relationship issues with their boyfriends...and here I am lieft in the middle. Because I have no boyfriend, of girlfriend, for that matter- it means that I'm just an accessory to accomodate them. Well, maybe thats not whats really happening, but i damn sure feels like it. Everyone is so fucking pre-occupied with their lovely, picture perfect relationships....yeah right. As soon as their is a problem, Im the first one to be called. Whatever, I can fucking care anymore, though I do. My body is very sore from working out. Ouch...

Jul. 13th, 2006


We talked about it. Things are so much better now. Communication works. Even though I am not fully done and over with these feelings. I'm on my way to recovery.

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